I have denied the faith

But if anyone does not provide for his relatives and especially for members of his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than the unbeliever. 1 tim 5:8

I believe that the Lord provides. I have seen and recieved miraculous examples of his provision in my life. Right now I am not providing and it makes for a difficult life.

The rich rules over the poor,and the borrower is the slave of the lender. prov 22:7

This is why I can not provide. I no longer work for my household, but for lenders.
The good lord willing this period will only last a few more years but the struggle is great and the stress mounts.

The reality of this verse is very clear, in that when under the rulership of lenders it is easy to loose focus on the true Provider.

Lord I affirm my faith in You as you clothe the flowers and feed the birds how much more so do you love me so I will seek you first and be content.

Grace and Peace, Mister MDH